Monday, September 28, 2015

Blue Period? Hello, I am on hiatus!


It seems I have entered my blue period,

Hello! I've been elsewhere recently, my second year of university has begun and it's been rather hectic. I have not forgotten about this little space of mine, tucked in an unknown corner of the vast world wide web, but I have neglected it.  For that I am sorry.

What has happened?  A little bit of heartache and confusion, a bit of haze, the feeling of being lost (And still finding) and of course the ever present pressure of school.  Currently, I am meant to be preparing for a chemistry test, but why not a post????

Recently I have faced difficulties that I just could not (at that time) manage. I felt defeated, dejected and utterly devastated.  I reeled at the fact that I wasn't strong enough, "shouldn't I be?"  There was a brief time where this swallowed me.  It seemed that my year was off to a bad start, I was disheartened, "How can this be my new beginning?"  But these demons had familiar faces, and although the crook of their nose or the slant of their eyelids differed slightly, I knew that for the most part I have already survived this.  And I will continue to do so.  I am not afraid of appearing weak or of soft heart (because maybe I am) but I am also not afraid to wake up the next day.  And the day after that.  I forget sometimes that my void is not conquest.  I cannot strong will may way into contentment or happiness or even the ever awful "okay", each day I must greet it, say hello, I know you're there, but so am I.  Living and breathing and aching and being.  I've come to peace with the fact that some days will be worse than others.

But enough about that.  My first week back at uni a friend and I volunteered at a blogger party, we ended up getting the give away bags the bloggers received and from that bag were a few fun goodies that I am only now trying.

One of them I tried today, that being Crown Brushes "Pure Exposed" eye shadow palette.  I'm not one for palettes, being a big fan of indie my favourite eye colours come in loose powder form, other than that I enjoy eye crayons.  As such, I don't have much to compare it to.  I've purchased Naked palettes and like products for friends (And have been time and time again been tempted by Guerlain.....), so I was quite excited to receive this.  I tried it for the first time today and had quite a bit of fun, here's what I came up with:





I haven't been as keen to wear makeup of late.  Over the summer I fell into the skincare rabbit hole (coming out of it with a routine I am rather fond of and the possibility for future experimentation) and soon grew more focused on that rather than colour makeup.  Of course I still relish in going through the whole routine of putting on a full face of makeup (there's just something therapeutic and transformative about the beauty ritual).  


Here I am wearing 19 on my lid with a bit of 21 in the center of the lid as well as the inner corner.  On my crease is a combination of 22 and 17, with 24 at the ends of the outer v.  On my browbone I patted on 13.  

Some thoughts on the shadows themselves: Definitely wouldn't say these are my favourite.  Aside from the portability and convenience of the palette (and a dual ended brush) I wouldn't reach for these verrrrryyy often.  There were a couple reasons why these didn't quite impress.  For one the pigmentation is lacking, there's an almost powdery quality to the shadows.  From pressed shadows I prefer a more velvet texture of soft pressed shadows that are richly pigmented.  These were drier and kicked up a lot of loose powder and weren't as pigmented as I hoped.  However, in a pinch they will do especially if accompanied by an eye primer!  The colour selection of the palette is pretty nice, although I wish they had a matte warm brown.  I do like that there are both shimmer and matte shades.  The wear time is also fairly nice, now at the end of my day, the shadows do show wear but have stayed mostly in place.  One thing I really liked from this was that it taught me to appreciate the ease of a palette, where I am now left with wanting others.  And perhaps I will, although I don't think I need anymore eye shadow at this point.

The rest of my makeup is the standard.  Over a weekend trip to Seattle I left my Visionnaire foundation in the hotel, and was without it for the rest of the summer.  That was rather unfortunate.

I am wearing Cle de Peau's Radiant Fluid Foundation and Estee Lauder's Re-Nutriv loose powder.  On my brows I have my new found love, Shu Uemura's hard formula pencil.  I'm wearing Bobbi Brown's black gel eye liner and Heroine Make mascara.  On my lips I have a random lipstick whose name I cannot recall (oops).  I've been without a setting spray for awhile now and I quite miss it.

In any case, this has become a novella.  I've said that this blog is in hiatus, and I am not yet in a place to say otherwise (sadly, enough).

Till next time!
Erika

P.S. I had an elaboration on the whole notion of a blue period, but I think I'm still in the process of thinking on that.